Last night was a hard night for me. I couldn't sleep. My mind was just racing with all sorts of random thoughts. I needed to sleep. I knew I would feel better if I could sleep. I finally took something to help me sleep at 2:30am. So this morning as I sat and contemplated all that was going through my mind as I tried to sleep I decided to create a wordle with those thoughts.
(ok...I have come back to edit this for the third time...I have issues I know!)
The interesting thing about all those thoughts last night was that I could almost convince myself that I was alone. In the way I felt. In what things meant. In the thoughts running through my head. I wanted to scream out to the universe. I wanted to be heard. I wanted to be mad. But I also wanted everyone to leave me alone. I wanted to retreat into my head. I wanted to sit on my bed and rock back and forth. I did all of those things while sleep eluded me. And now that I have had some sleep I do feel better. I still feel a lot of those things, but I am able to control my thoughts. Not let them run away and have a life of their own. Not let them consume me.
And the funny thing about this wordle is that I know it isn't complete. There were other things going through my mind, but I honestly can't remember what they were now. It's amazing what sleep will do for a person.